A long weekend.

We are all starting to get into a familiar routine. My red headed hurricane has settled into kinder and is starting to get quite happy about going. He plans what he would like to do and mostly the teacher is very happy to accommodate. It is quite lovely to see his world expanding and he had his first party. We were thrilled that the little girl was called the same name as our little angel. Also that on the party bags she stamped her name with a butterfly. Our symbol for our angel. It was like a sign. Our Red Headed hurricane was so happy when he came home telling us of his adventures.

Our Petal is flying along and has been moved into the top literacy group, we are all thrilled at her wonderful progress. I have to be careful, no spelling words, no leaving my email open and no leaving notes that I don't want read, she reads everything and Anything. So we are guiding her to use her powers for good, We bought her a lovely E-Magazine for children and installed it on her little computer. We are on a mission to make bees wax candles and lip balm.

I have completed one unit in my study and I now have a massage table and have given both children a full back and leg massage well full being what I have learnt. We had the children's music on and it was quite lovely. My other half was amazed at how much I have learnt.... it must look alright as he spent the whole time watching me, tell me that is not pressure. I bought the table off a lovely friend of mine, it is the nicest table that I have seen and I am so happy. I must remember to send her a little thank you note. Where oh where am I going to set it up. I was hoping to keep the spare room as a sewing room however I am thinking that this is not going to be the case. I have been very busy with the study and learning. I have to say that I am enjoying it and I have a list of people that are wanting me to practice on them. Thank goodness as I have to do a log book of 50 hours as part of the course.

We went to the park today, a lovely walk in the sun, just watched the children play and run around in the warm weather. The walk back was one of discovery, some lavender collected, a lizard observed, some rainbow parrots eating our apples, stairs to no where, lots of lovely flowers and different houses being built.

It was quite a nice weekend, we met up with a dear friend in the city for lunch and let the children enjoy catching fairies and walking in the rain.

Back to it now.

3 boxes

I have a strong feeling when it comes to boxes, I don't see something for children to play with, I don't see something to pack things in, I see 3 boxes that sit on my shelf at home. They make me sad, they make me angry, they make me reflect. These boxes all contains ashes. I picked up another one yesterday of Stanley. The other 2 are my parents. I see them everyday. I read the inscriptions and realise how much more I want, another day, another hour, another moment.....

I look at the boxes and realise that my thoughts have been conveyed to my youngest child. When we were in Mitre10 he asked why they kept peoples ashes on a shelf in the garden section and his older sister explained to him that this box was not for ashes but for goods they were selling.

Sometimes I wish our life was a little different and the children did not know what death and all the implications of losing their sister, their grandparents, their uncle and their dog meant.

I wish that I didn't have to hear from my children late at night when they come and see me; "I am a little sad about....."