Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Bells Palsy

Last night after returning home from classes, I was exhausted. We have a new subject that requires maximum attention and energy. I had a small procedure on Monday and I was still a little sore and tired.  It had been a long day. My Petal was still sick and I had that awful feeling. I phoned during class time which is something I never do to check on her. I was told that she was going well and that helped me to settle a bit.  I thought a lovely treat of natural corn chips and avocado dip would help her feel a little happier, we haven't seen her smile much for a while and I can say that I have sincerely missed her beautiful smile.

My children were happily watching Alice in Wonderland on dvd when I came home. So everything was happy and calm, eating chips and dip.  I noticed that my girls eye was not looking good and I worried about that.  I had hoped for a big improvement and it didn't seem to be there.  Something was not quite right was nagging away at me.

After dinner. we were sitting together and I saw what was wrong.  Her face on one side was not working. That beautiful smile was only 1/2.  I was horrified and so scared. I called to my other half to get the phone and I said I don't know, hospital, ambulance, something immediately.  My poor Petal was looking very scared and I had to just talk to someone medical.  I called Nurse on Call.  They talked to me and I was already working out what to do, take her to hospital immediately. They confirmed this and we left.

We dashed off together.  All the family with a quick message to very dear friend.

When there, we had to take a number, there were so many people and the last think I wanted to do was sit and wait patiently.  My head was going through all different neurological problems.  We were seen very quickly and as soon as they saw her face, the doctor was called and we were pushed in front of all the other people waiting. This did not help my overwhelming panic.

I did not test her hand strength, or do anything that I knew to do, I was too frightened that this was a stroke or something permanent.  My Hurricane was a lovely calming influence for my girl who was reading my face and seeing how upset I was. He explained that we were going to have a lovely adventure and he was very happy that we were going to hospital to fix things. He has a lot of faith in doctors and I like his believe.

We were watching the doctor test her reflexes, her face and talking about all the things. Her medicine, her medical conditions, her ear infection.  I wanted to ask him a thousand questions instead I supplied all the answers to his. How could things go so very wrong so very quickly.   Why didn't I go home when I felt something wrong!  Why was this happening to my beautiful Petal she has been through so very much.

We found out too that her Pop was in the other cubicle being treated for his problems.  This distracted my Hurricane and he was happy to be with Pop whilst the doctor was checking his sister.  Pop was happy to have the company too.

After a few agonising minutes the doctor turned to me and said that he thought it was Bells Palsy.   I knew what it was but didn't know all the details.   A quick explanation and I realised that this might not be something that self corrects.  Another doctor came in and confirmed this.  He re-checked all her symptoms, re-checked all her reflexes, face and eyes.  Next a phone call to the Royal Children's Hospital, a leading specialist was confirming everything and supplying some answers and treatment.  No steroids, they are reluctant to give them to children and I was happy about this.  We have to continue with the antibiotics.

So now we are watching and waiting and monitoring her symptoms.  She is exhausted, emotional and over it all.  My Petal wants nothing more than to be cuddled and have this all disappear.










Sunday, May 27, 2012

My kingdom for some sleep

This week has been one of those weeks. My poor Petal has been sick with an ear infection and of course it gets so much worse at night time. When I get home from school I find her in tears and miserable from the pain.  I have been working hard with my reflexology and foot bath with essential oils to help with the pain to enable her to get a few hours sleep. This is all we are getting.  So the family is exhausted. My Hurricane luckily sleeps through all the night time routines of getting pain medication to her, cuddles and heat packs.I have been getting her into our bed for cuddles and help settle her. Last night it was horrible and we decided that she should sleep in our bed, poor love actually got some lovely sleep unfortunately this is the sacrifice we made for ours.

I was looking forward to a conference all week, then today I realised that it was not going to happen. I don't have the level of concentration needed to sit through the hours of lectures, to go to the city and wander around. I am exhausted and drained and need to spend some quite time with my Petal.  I have distracted her with very simple craft projects that we have done together, whist she was having an alright morning.

A couple of washi tape flags with a little bit of maths homework whilst we are doing it. I try to take any and every opportunity especially with everyday tasks to incorporate maths.  Sewing, craft and cooking is ideal to use.


We found an old bottle that we dug up from the garden and decided this would make a perfect vase and be lovely decorated in washi tape.  (If you stand still too long around here you could find yourself nice decorated in tape.)



My regular friday routine of looking after Pop during the day is not normally too complex.  This week there was a bit of pressure an assignment, a sick girl and the rain and storms made it more challenging especially when Pop decided to go for a walk in the storm and nothing I said was going to stop him.  So I dropped everything and dashed off after him.  I managed to get him back inside without either of us getting too wet.  It is quite challenging now, the moments of clarity are only that.... moments brief and fleeting.  When I am talking to him it is like working a cryptic crossword. I was asked about the Guy Fawkes man. This turned out to be a question about a good friend of ours who is a pyrotechnician.  He does the amazing fireworks show each year for New Years Eve in Melbourne.

Back to assignments - 7 to do now!






Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Exam tomorrow

We have been working on a reflexology subject. I have enjoyed this so very much and look forward to putting some of the techniques into practice. I used a couple in a recent massage that I did.  Very enjoyable and this is a subject that I would like to further my education with. So tomorrow I will work on one of my fellow students foot and a condition that will be from our list.  We have all sorts of conditions to work on from foot and legs cramps to asthma. All I have to do is memorise all the possible movements for all these treatments and I will be right. Lack of sleep is not making things easy for me.

Things are still tough at the moment however re-doing my subject at a later date seems to have taken a little bit of pressure off my situation.  Next problem needing solving is finding time to actually get my hours up so that I have that under control.

The children have been having very quiet plays together or watching movies, (it would seem the classics have been the most popular) which is all my Petal can be bothered doing whilst she is sick. Her favourite hobby of reading has been ditched and her appetite is almost nothing. I know that she is very sick poor love.

Yesterday I had to judge the impressive structure that they had built together with blocks and other things. It was a team effort with my Hurricane working on the main structure and guiding the Petal to what would be easiest for her.





There is a whole story that goes along with the structures.   "It is working with the police lego, the person who invents things gets to build all the goodies stuff and the other people get to build their character only but the person who gets the red scarf has to build the badies stuff."  this is part of the app that he wants to create and make money from!  My red Headed Hurricane is back to inventing and making money for the family.

My Hurricane was looking in my medical books to try and find a cure for his Pop, he knows he is sick and forgets things I am not sure how much he understands, sometimes much more that I ever realise.   Pop has vascular dementia and Alzheimer's and has recently deteriorated quite considerably since his recent stay in hospital.   He was looking for a picture that looked like his Pop's problems and he found it in my pain book and then when he went back to show me he couldn't find it. He is sure that his mummy could cure him from the information that I am learning about in anatomy and massage.  He explained this to his Nanny.  I love his faith in my abilities and my great books.

Finally my Petal is sleeping she hasn't slept at all last night nor today and finally bombed, after much resistance to allowing herself to sleep which is what she desperately needs to get better.  Nice to hear her snoring next to me on the couch, sound asleep.  Shame that it is nearly 6:30pm when she gave in after much ranting from me.

I wouldn't mind a little cat nap myself!








Sunday, May 20, 2012

A BIG BRICK WALL

I have hit a brick wall. I wonder if it's just that we have a lot of emotional stuff going on.  I am trying to study and as fast as I cram it in, it falls out again. It being the information that I need to learn.  I now have 2 exams next week and I was sitting doing craft with my hurricane, it was only 1/2 hour (I feel guilty and quite torn both ways, guilty that this is all the time I could give him and guilty because I really needed to be studying).  He liked the attention and was very happy with the outcome.  We decorated a treasures box with Washi tape.  (very addictive).

It was a request that he said a lot.  Mummy you never have time to do anything with me now and I miss that. It was not something that I could ignore and I was so sad that it has come to this.  I hated that I felt guilty and that I needed to be studying, i always need to be studying.

We all sat down and did reading together, we read in the library at school (after pick up). "the Naughty Corner" was my choice.  The children laughed all the way through this lovely book and demanded that I read it again.  The second time was no less enjoyable!  I sat down on the lounge with my boy and did his reader, listening to his amazing progress and the gaining of confidence and then his words. This pleasure I have not done for a while now.

It is hard juggling life and school. BOTH demand my attention (full and undivided). BOTH are time consuming and BOTH are wonderful journeys not limited to the roller coaster rides. I miss being a mum, I miss doing the things with the children. I miss just being at home and planning day to day routines. I miss our day to day routines.  I miss having things flow a bit smoothly instead of the chaos that is being created with me schooling.

Today I came to an important decision that I need to repeat a subject. Yes it will extend my time however it will also give me a little break, at this stage I deserve a little brea!  I have so many assignments, 6 was the last count now and exams and so much else happening as well with my other half's father being so very sick.  His mum needs us and I cannot and will not say no to her.

I will have to talk to the school tomorrow and see if they are happy with this decision and if not I will be back to square one.  Something has to change.








Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Weekend Away

We have had a few trying weeks and I decided that we absolutely needed some time away, it didn't matter that it was going to absolutely kill our budget, it didn't matter that I really needed to study, I needed a break more than anything and My Red Headed Hurricane needed his birthday treat.  So we dashed off to the coast, for a belated birthday, mothers day and rest and recovery time.

First thing that happened just after we booked was a discount email came through, so we rang up and managed to get the upgrade to the discount, got to love those emails.  We were now just getting a room for the weekend but also a free paper each day,  free hot chocolate/coffee on arrivals, free spa, free peddle bike and a free dvd hire.  So this was good, freebies are always appreciated.

We left on Friday and had a great trip down there in spite of the peak hour.  We arrived and quickly dropped off our things and dashed off to the fish and chip shop. Another budget blower however it was great after a long drive.   Then afterwards we watched Avatar, something that we had watched before but were keen to see.

The next day was lovely, no rain in sight so we did a spot of Op Shopping, infact we went and tried a new one that we haven't been to before.  LOVELY I think this is our new favourite. The ladies in the shop were great.  My girl found lots of lovely things 2 tops, 5 books, a gift of an angel from the lovely ladies at the shop. We spent $8.00 in total at this op shop. It was so much fun and although my boy didn't get anything he had a lovely time looking and knew that we might find something at the next or even the 3rd one. This was his request for the morning and we were happy to play along.

My lovely bowl from the op shop (one of the purchases) that I am using for soup. My Other Half made a pumpkin soup with coconut milk and some thai spices.


We walked around enjoying the sun, we then popped back to the cabin for some lunch.  The wonderful Anglesea Fruitz had some lovely specials including smoked salmon so a very decedent lunch happened.  I avoided the brie leaving it to the rest of my family to devour. Next on the list was the peddle bikes (not the ones on the water) this one was a 4 seater and we rode around the caravan park stopping for a break at strategic places.  The first stop, the games area and park.  A break for a few minutes, a collection of a new friend to have a spin and then off again, next break for mummy and daddy's very tired legs was the beach, watching the waves and the people on the beach and in the surf.  Next stop, we made our way to the giant cushion. We all went for a bounce and laughed when we all fell over.  Last stop was the return of the bike.  After that was the spa and dinner. We explained to the children that we were not doing the whole weekend of take away and made a lovely dinner, we watched a video for a lovely quiet evening.  Everyone was sleepy after a lovely warm spa and a lovely warm shower sitting in front of a cozy fire.

The next morning was Mothers Day. I always have very mixed emotions about this day.  I love the cuddles and the small presents that the children give me,  all day! However there is a little face missing.......  I received some lovely presents including a few from the stall at School now from both my children.  I loved the made presents, aren't they always so very special. I love the butterflies and all the thought they put into each and every present that make or choose.


I found a lovely market nearby to the Caravan Park and after a big cooked breakfast (I was shooed away every time I tried to help) we checked out and dashed off to market.  Lovely produce there, unfortunately we did arrive late. We saw a stall holder that we know from St Andrews market and was able to have a chat. My kiddies tested out their Chinese on her. 


After that we drove around looking at blocks of land and dreaming about what we could do with them.  My Hurricane didn't really understand what we were looking at; he would march around the vacant block and wonder why were happy walking around in the cold and wet.  It was mud, why would we want to buy mud!

One last walk along the shops before the rain drove us back to the car and homeward bound.

I hope you had a lovely mothers day and received those beautiful presents that we treasure.

x






Monday, May 14, 2012

Free things!


I was talking to my Other Half, about when I was younger and we did school projects.   We would write away to the company (which involved getting paper, planning the letter, addressing the envelope, getting a stamp, walking to the post office and sending that letter) and receive lots of lovely free things back in return for a simple letter, the companies that gave extra's were always discussed and agreed that we really liked them.  Absolutely loved it, it was always exciting to see what the companies would send. I was thinking how much things  have changed, that it's just not the same now clicking on google and doing a search or liking on Facebook as it was sending a letter and waiting for the parcel to arrive in the post.

I don't know about you but I love getting free things, our budget being so very tight, I have been finding ways of getting free things or samples every chance I get.  Lets face it who doesn't have a tight budget nowadays!

A few discoveries are T2 tea. I love those lovely expensive beautiful teas.  I also get very happy when you walk in that you can try whatever they have on offer normally about a sample size of 6, this is just the start!   Did you know that you can ask for tasters or 1 or 2 without having to purchase anything? I get these lovely little samples for when we go away or just a morning treat.  When we were away at the coast we have 5 or 6 to choose from and they are fantastic. They also have a free club to join and
I will let you know how that goes... how many samples etc that you receive.

Kleenex is letting you send out free samples to friends at the moment. I don't know the size however I have sent a couple of people so i am sure they will let me know. Who doesn't need any and every tissue they can get their hands on with this lovely cold weather we are having.

Moo is also getting you started on a free, just free, 10 sample business cards. I think this is great to see what you are looking for.

Stay tuned I am sure that I will find lots more free things whilst procrastinating on my study for my exam next week.









Thursday, May 10, 2012

Washi Tape and My Remedial Massage Course

My course is moving along now. I have re-sat the trigger point exam and passed without any problems. I have 4 more assignments to do and another 1 pending.   I have done myofascial release 1 and 2 and found the technique fascinating and amazing, fabulous teacher; Michael Stanborough. I have also started reflexology studies who knew that we have 7200 nerve endings in our feet.  Seems very interesting and I am looking forward to the next class. We are doing cupping (vacuum) and I have lots of pretty circles on my arms, back, chest and abdomen.  We haven't done our legs yet!  I have really enjoyed glass flame cupping and anatomy does my head in so much to learn. I am still just chipping away at things. I have so many assignments that if I think too hard about them my head hurts!


Just when I think that I am doing so much better with my diet and lifestyle I get a reality check with all the lovely toxins coming out.  These do not hurt, they are not bruises just marks, if you press on them they don't have any ouch problems unless they are right on a trigger and that happens as well. This one is not done using the Eastern philosophies strictly trigger points and tight spots. No meridians or Qi.

So in other news. My Other Half's father is in hospital and slowly coming good. We didn't know if he would make it and it has been a really tough time.  I was at school on that weekend of course. He was raced to hospital the evening before Grandparents day.  So we kept the kiddies home and made things.

So we made a washi tape book. I have bought some more washi tape for both the kiddies as the boy was very interested.  I am very keen to see what lovely creations they are going to make





So even though my Petal didn't get to make lovely things at school with her grandparents at least she did have a lovely day at home making something with her parents.  The Washi covered notebook worked a treat.  (Thank you Sew Delicious)!

That evening we went out to a lovely restaurant with a friend. This was his birthday present to my Red Headed Hurricane and he thought that was wonderful.  Fondue was what he wanted, cheese for main and chocolate for dessert so this is what we had.



I think the smile says it all!












Monday, May 7, 2012

Money and the Massage room.

Today we had a meeting with the bank manager of our local bank to see if we were eligible to borrow money and how much.  We are still planning the rooms and realised that it was a bit of a problem. How could we do the room/s if we didn't have the money and how much money do we need. So we decided that our best plan was to find out if we could actually borrow money given our lack of employment status.

Before we moved ahead with anything further and I have many ideas for the room and have started working out what is necessary for my massage room. An electric table, access to running water, a sink and mixer that didn't require hands to operate it.  An air condition/heating.  Sound proofing and curtains or blinds or something that would block out light, dimmer switch and suitable lighting. A sound system and other little but important details.

It would seem with our credit history and ability to pay back other loans that it would not be a problem. All we have to do now is start getting quotes for the room/s and make sure that it's this financial year.  This was a nice tick to get!

So on to the next step, getting plans drawn up and a builder and other trades.





Friday, May 4, 2012

I love vintage!

I love vintage things, retro and australian made too!  I love all the wonderful things that are around now that have surfaced from cupboards and homes and some are very affordable prices and some are not,  however I just love looking at all the wonderful things that you can find, it makes me happy.

When I was growing up, red was banned from our family home. My mother always disliked it, passionately and so nothing red entered the house and if it did it normally left very quickly or was shoved away in a cupboard.



I found one of these lovely items when I was helping her organise her hall cupboards a few years ago and asked if I could have it.  It was the start of my red passion at our house, this lovely red poole plate.  At first I was frightened to have red in the house, then after a bit there was no stopping us. Even a red splash back and curtains! (not vintage, I wish).


My Petal made the beautiful flower for the vase.



I am chasing the light, I always seem to be running out of light when I am trying to take photos.  I must get more time or more light. It has turned so very cold and dark lately, hard to believe it is not winter.

I don't have an era, I just like the look the things.






So for me the house feels like it has lots of red a warm and inviting colour and not the warning colour that it was in the past.





Thursday, May 3, 2012

Lovely Surprise

Yesterday in the mail I received a lovely surprise.

It was a beautiful present from my dear sister-in-law.  Thank you lovely Louise.  (I am thrilled.)

It is a beautiful butterfly scarf and it matches so well with my recent purchase of my ring from Kimono Reincarnate and it has beautiful butterflies to remind me of my Angel.

I love presents especially ones that are so very special.

I also did another massage again last night. It was an emergency call one that came when I needed to practice my lovely new technique Myofascial release. A subject that I really enjoy, my teacher is brilliant and I hang off every word he says. His bedside manner is amazing and he knows exactly how to encourage you to relax and be effective with his wonderful and gentle treatments, a big contrast to the Trigger points, search and destroy techniques that we learnt a few weeks ago.

Whilst blogging about this lovely item I looked up and saw a rosella in our tree just outside the window. It is a good start to the rainy day.

Now off to do some study, the books are calling to me, insisting that I do this.




My Red Headed Hurricane's Birthday

Yesterday, well the day before, was my Hurricanes birthday. We were a little anxious about how it would go. Firstly we were very light on presents, no clothes this time, however the quality of things was good. My Petal and myself made the bracelet. My Hurricane thought it was "great!"  My Petal also made him a card from all of us.




We bought him a Shaun Tan book, The Arrival. I love it, Shaun Tan really transports you to a different world or place.  I am very happy and looking forward to sitting down with him for a quiet moment and bonding with a beautiful book.

A toy, a lego lamp, no lego from us even this time. The budget only stretches so far. However we have some lovely friends who are getting him lego.  His wish list wasn't very long, he is easily pleased so that is great.  

We had a lovely roast dinner with a friend (almost family) and family as well. Nanny and Pop always like to attend the birthday dinner, so it was lovely to have them here.  We had roast, then cake.  I think the cake turned out alright too.  We had more visitors arrive in time for cake.  My Hurricane thinks of these ocassions as a party, we don't do parties for the children. Before he cut the cake he lined up all the pretty girls that were visiting so that when he touched the bottom he could kiss them all. He didn't want anyone to miss out!







We offer them an alternative of going to coast for an overnight visit.  This seems to be a satisfactory alternative to parties.  Although with lots of lovely people visiting I think it feels like a party all the same. I am sure judging from the smiles that we get, he is very happy with the experience and certainly doesn't feel like he is missing out.

It was a good night, although my poor boy just wanted so desperately to sit and build his lego that he received for a present, either that night or just forget about school and stay home the next day. I had to explain to him that he had to go to school.  Tears followed and criticism of my parenting skills as well.

He then explained to me that I don't always do what I say.  Hmmm. After all that effort it is nice to be reminded by a 6 year old on his birthday that you are failing as a parent. It was a busy and trying day at times.  (that story is for another blog).

My Red Headed Hurricane is growing up so fast!